“Route recalculating. Please proceed to the highlighted route.” I don’t know how many times my GPS has told me that when I’ve missed an exit, gotten locked into a lane by traffic, or construction moves the exit/ road I’m searching for. This time, however, it was my own internal, mental GPS that continued off course, despite the pleadings to make a safe U-turn and proceed to the highlighted route.
I’ve been away from so much that I enjoy doing, and take solace from! Things that help clear my crazed, cluttered, confused, and weary mind. This journaling, blogging, creating, writing has just been pushed aside while I celebrated family, moved family in with me, had surgery, worked like crazy, and made so much other stuff, and many other people, priorities over myself. I don’t begrudge any of it, by the way, I just need to move myself up a little further on the list.
I need to find time (and energy) to step out and take a walk, or ride a bike. To do something to help bring my body back to where it should be. I know the benefits I’d gain physically, but I tend to discount the mental benefits as well.
I know I can’t get there from here. Time to listen to the GPS and get back on the right road.
Sometimes I wonder if Julie Andrews was right when, from high atop a mountaintop in Austria, arms spread wide, she sings, “Climb every mountain, search high and low, follow every by way, every path you know… ”
I’ve talked in past blogs (I think) that a lot of life is based on perspective. A good friend of mine was advised to try and change perspective instead of letting things bother them so much. And they tried to, succeeding more often than not, but it seemed that finally the ability to change perspective just gets to be too much, that there are nor other options. No other glasses to look through. No kaleidoscope to peer through in hopes of seeing something -anything- better than it is.
You’ve lived on this mountain, trying everything to see better. You keep climbing up it, fighting battles, weathering all types of storms along the way. You either make it to the top, or you just know that that climb is too difficult. Sometimes when you get to that point, at least to my way of thinking, its time to take drastic changes. If you don’t like the view that you have where you’re standing at, maybe its time to move to a new mountain.
You have the ability to change what you see, and how you see it. If you’re not happy, your friends will try their damnedest to cheer you up, but more often than not, the change, or choice, to be happy resides in you. Is it easy? Nope. Is it scary? Hell, yes. Are you with taking the chance on? Absolutely. Go for it!