I was up early on Sunday morning to get ready for work, and while I was puttering about, I had my television on to keep me company in my quiet house. Early Sunday morning TV here in North Texas is predominantly church shows, and that morning I remember the white noise up until the end of the sermon when the preacher tied the sermon in to everyday life.
It seems the message was about the Battle of Jericho, a story told in song to small children when I was growing up, so it was a story that I remembered, albeit a bit vaguely. The seed of thought that he planted in my brain began to grow as I thought about the questions that he closed with. He asked about our own Jericho; was it overcoming a blow? the need to let go of something or someone that is harmful to us? fulfilling a personal challenge?
I began to realize that I have a couple of those “Jericho’s” in my life. The first is the decision to leave my teaching job of eight years. Don’t get me wrong, I know that I made the right decision for myself, but I thought I would have an easier time finding a new teaching position. That one is all “blah, blah, blah” as it sits, percolating in my brain.
My other Jericho is my writing. Yes, still putting my randomness into my blog, but I have also entered a month long challenge to write a novel during the month of July. This one, writing, makes me feel better about things. I don’t know if what I am doing will be worth the month of my time, but… you know how sometimes something just feels right? That is writing for me. My Daddy is my biggest supporter right now, but a few days ago I had a moment of WTH?!? when I was reading over my story, making changes. I was having a serious discussion with my self doubts when I, for whatever reason, decided to peek at my horoscope for that day:
Sometimes, and Monday was one of these days, when I miss my Mama so much, when I wish I could pick up the phone and talk to her, get her advice, the answer is there waiting for me.
I am planning to win my battle of Jericho. I don’t know what will come after it, but this one I will win.