From the Sidelines


Where to begin? I know it has been 10 days or so since my last post, you know, the one I so bravely called “Nothing But Excuses.” Yeah… about that…

Due to some unforeseen circumstances, I have had to put my twice weekly sessions with Sadist on a freeze for the time being. This was certainly not what I was wanting to do, but things are what they are.

The very next day I ended up taking my daughter to the doctor to find out she had the flu. I kept myself out of the gym last week to keep from spreading the virus since I had been exposed. This week has, so far, been more of the same with such little energy reserves to head to gym at the end of the day.

Despite, or maybe in spite of, the past week, I still had the diet to keep track of (which was easy with all the germs floating around!). While I was no diet saint, I do nibble my sweets periodically, I tried to stay true to the “eat less crap” lifestyle I have been adapting to, and it has worked.

My progress this month is below. I was not able to get all of the measurements by myself, but those I was able to get left me, honestly, agog.

As of today, my weight is 203.6 pounds. I am still 33 pounds over where I want to be by the end of this year, but as of today, I am 20 pounds closer to that mark. I am a mere 4 pounds from where I want to be on my 43 birthday. I can’t lie, this made my heart sing today.

My measurements (again, that I could take by myself) continued to drop. By my math, it appears I lost another 10 inches this past month, plus 6 pounds.

Jul 25, 2013 14 1/2 49 1/2 46 14 14 43 47 1/2 28 28 17 17
Aug 16, 2013 14 47 1/2 44 13 13 42 45 26 26 17 17
Sep 16, 2013 14 47 1/2 43 1/2 12 12 1/2 41 45 25 1/2 25 1/2 17 1/2 17 1/2
Oct. 23, 2013 14 42 1/2 39 1/2 42 1/4 25 24 1/2 16 1/4 16 1/4


Nothing But Excuses


As a teacher I have heard so many excuses from students over the past nine years that run the gauntlet from absurd to hilarious. But as I sit and reflect over the past month of gym time, I realize that I am no better than my kiddos. While I am still determined to get rid of all this extra weight, my time in the gym has become more like swiss cheese and so full of holes, and I have an arsenal of excuses as to why. Admittedly, some have been valid reasons, but the majority of them? Were I to be pleading my workout excuses to my teacher persona, I would call bullshit and fail.

So here I am, one month exactly from my 43 birthday, eyeballing a goal I have for myself that I need to accomplish before that day. It is not impossible, but I have got to refocus on my main objective and get my butt back in gear. I have to be accountable to myself first, then I can look my family, friends, and coworkers in the eye, and report here to you, that I did it.

It is time to shake the dust off of my initial determination, flip stress the bird,   take back control, all while not forgetting how to live and laugh at the ridiculous.

So, this mornings weight was a horrifying 212. I am going the wrong direction, but I know it, I see it, I am going to fix it. November 14 I will be under 200 pounds. Do you hear me, self? I am tired of failing myself. Tonights workout will kick my butt, but that is what I want. I am not starting over, I have not regressed back up to the 220’s, I am just tuning back in to where I should be.

Back to Sadist


I’m not sure how long, nor how good, this post will be… I’m writing in on my iPad as my laptop is being uncooperative tonight, but I will do my best to do right for you all.

If you’ve been following my blog, you’ve noticed that I stopped writing about my sessions with Sadist. No, I have not given up. Things did slow down for a while, and seem to be going through a phase not unlike rush hour traffic where you creep along, then speed up only to slow back down again. It’s life. It’s what happens to all of us. Hopefully these events don’t cause us to lose focus on what our ultimate goal is. With any luck, it reaffirms our commitment once we are able to get into the motion, the correct direction, again.

As I said, I’m still meeting with Sadist twice a week, generally on Monday and Wednesday nights, making it my responsibility to get in on my own for one or two more cardio sessions, along with a third workout. Finding my way through and beyond my folio of excuses is not always easy. Finding and scheduling time around my responsibilities as Mom, my jobs, and sleep is not always the easiest of tasks, but it’s up to me to decide the level of commitment that I am going to keep.

Last week was a crazy change up to my workouts. Yes, there was much cussing and flipping off involved, but Sadist knows what I need for the next step, how to push me when I’ve just become comfortable with the way things are going. Ultimately, isn’t that what living is about? The moment we become satisfied, comfortable, that’s when we need to shake things up. Whether it be pushing ourselves a bit harder in our workouts, or stepping out of the comfy box we stay in and try something new or daring, finding the courage inside ourself. That’s often when life will smack you on the head and show you the next layer of happiness, of bravery, of fearlessness.

Okay, okay, back to the workout; enough blah blah for right now.


Tri sets of:
Dumbbell hammer curls (biceps) 1 set, 12 reps, 15 pounds
Dumbbell kick back (triceps) 1 set, 12 reps, 15 pounds
T-steps 25
Rest. Repeat for a total of 3 sets

Close grip cable curls 1 set, 15 reps, 15, then up to 20 pounds
Tricep extension 1 set, 15 reps, 17.5 pounds
Rest. Repeat for a total of 3 sets.

Reverse grip tricep extension 1 set, 12 reps, 17.5 pounds
Dumbbell curls (regular) 1 set, 12 reps, 10 pounds
Rest. Repeat for a total of 3 sets.

Machine crunches 1 set, 12 reps, 10 pounds
Oblique work 1 set, 12 reps
Rest. Repeat for a total of 3 sets

I will post another workout this week. For now, stay focused on your goals, large or small.

October Already?


Welcome to October!?!

I swear I feel like a cross between the Energizer Bunny who just keeps going, and going, and going, and the white rabbit from Lewis Carroll’s Alice in Wonderland, “I’m late, I’m late, for a very important date,” and the person I have this important date which I am perpetually late for, is with myself. As I sit here thinking about what to write, and as it dawns on me that not only have we reached a new crazy, hectic, chaotic month that seems to be the stepping stone into holiday season, I remembered that here in the US, October is National Breast Cancer Awareness Month. Thinking about this, I realize that way back in July when I started this journey to a healthier, more fit me, I really just looked at it from the perspective of transforming my body from the obese me that I was into a woman with a healthy body fat index, and a stronger body that is capable of doing more than I want to give myself credit for. But there is so much more to the “healthier me” that I am in search of.

I need to make a date with myself, and commit to this one like the exercising, and once a month give myself a breast self examination. I need to know what to look for, and I can find that information here. The symptoms are the same for both men and women.

So, as I continue my daily two-step dance with the diet and the gym, and my constant struggle with my own body image; there is another facet in my health that I must address. Every realization, every acknowledgement, every action that I take continues to take me toward that healthier me.

Now, I will wish you a happy, healthy, strong, and successful October. See you next time!