It seems as if Monday was forever ago! This week has flown by so far, and I have been bombarded with so many thoughts, words, circling in my brain about what I should write about next. The hard part is sorting all of that jumble out into something coherent and, hopefully, meaningful. The correct combination of words that will continue to encourage you to find the “it” you are searching for.
I have been learning a lot over the past two months that I have been on this journey. I have realized that where true friendship lies I will find my biggest, most constant supporters. The men and women who touch me most, despite the too many miles and oceans which separate us, are the biggest and loudest source of encouragement. These are the ones who have reached out to me when I have doubts about myself, and my reasons for sharing so much of my life with you all. I learned that I am not alone in my circle of friends, that sometimes I have said the right thing at the right time to the one who needed it along with me.
I have been learning that I am much stronger than I thought, and not just physically. I am still not one who enjoys confrontation, the getting in someones face and letting them have it, but I am not quite the pushover that I was a few months ago. I have been including songs /videos that represent me somehow, songs that reflect my progress, or my attitude. From Katy Perry’s “Roar”, Sara Barielles’ “Brave”, Kelley Clarkson’s “Stronger” to tonight’s “Edge of Glory” by Lady Gaga. I know I am not quite at the edge YET, but I am a hell of a lot closer than I was in mid July.
Every one of us is searching for something, some piece of something. If we are lucky enough, we know what it is we are looking for, the parts and pieces that we are missing. Every day is a step toward that peace. It is a journey, a quest, a battle, a goal that no one can take for us, but if we are lucky, those who matter most will cheer us on from the sidelines and be waiting for us at every success. If you get to a point and feel like you’re suddenly alone, you’re not. I’ll keep cheering you on, and if you listen with your heart, you will hear those who matter the most to you, and to whom you matter, applauding each and every step, no matter how big or small it is.
Thanks to my cheerleaders, M, K, A, G/J, W, A, A, J, R, T, KTK, L, Mom and Dad