Day 18: Masks



As I sit here every day, thinking about what I want to write about, I worry that I am changing the who I am in the eyes of my friends. I really do not think that the challenge I have given myself, this journey, this search for a healthier me is doing anything to alter my personality.  This is a way for me to not only be healthier in body, but also to rediscover the parts of me that I lost so many years ago to a failed marriage, making me healthier in mind, too. I am looking for those long buried pieces of me to see whether they still fit, and if not, then I hope to find the new pieces, the ones that fit the 42 – 43 year old me, the sometimes wiser one.
This online, open to anyone, journal, blog is about every part of my transformation. Some people will hate it, think it is ridiculous, and that is fine with me. Others may pay attention to some of it, finding they can relate to bits and pieces of what I post, and maybe find something useful in my rambling words and thoughts. Then there are those who are tired of sitting at home, hiding behind a mask, afraid to do something, anything, because they have lost a bit of their sparkle, their hope. I am the last one, the person who was losing hope. I hated looking in the mirror, I looked for reasons to not do anything outside of family and work, all because of what I had let myself become. I cannot be this person anymore.
So, you see, while I am working hard to change the outside of me into a healthy, fit person; while I am looking at the puzzle pieces of myself, looking at how they may or may not fit together, I am still the quirky me with the warped sense of humor that I have always been. Like my picture above says, “I am not changing who I am, I am just finally figuring it out.”


Make or become different: “a proposal to change the law”; “beginning to change from green to gold”.
The act or instance of making or becoming different.
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