Everyone has those moments, those days of “blah” or loneliness, or whatever internal battles you suddenly find yourself face to face with. I went to bed last night feeling good I had accomplished something yesterday, nothing grandiose, nothing of importance to anyone but me, and it felt good knowing that I had succeeded. But this morning? This morning was a complete emotional 180 degree turn from yesterday. I could not find the positive spin that I usually do, it was as if a major earthquake had knocked me a few degrees off of my axis and left me floundering drifting in this depressed abyss of my own design.
Oddly enough, while I was mentally ordering up party decorations and customizing an appropriate playlist for my own little pity party, a piece of my brain that was sitting quietly, observing the rest to see how I handled, coped with, this dark, heavy fog decided to speak up and point out something to me. My habit, my “go -to” method of escape, or whatever you want to call it, would usually be to start eating everything in the house, going through the cabinets and refrigerator like a termite through wood, but this time I have not. I purposely ignored my kitchen, except for my coffee, I chose, instead, to lose myself in the pages of a book (always a great method of escape for me).
Next thing I know is my phone is chirping and I am getting a message of encouragement from one of my friends, totally out of the blue, completely unexpected, and exactly what I needed when I was needing it most.
Whenever, or whatever, life tries to knock you off balance, away from your goal, your happiness, your strength, your YOU, remember the things or the people who bring you the greatest joy and remember the people who believe in you, and believe in yourself just as much as they do.
|What Iâve experienced is that I canât know the future. I canât know if anything that I do will change what happens tomorrow. I canât know with certainty, but what I do know is if I do nothing, nothing will change.|
|— James Orbinski|